Do you trust darkness?
As winter’s dark, cold days approach, I think about this month’s free-flow-writing theme: TRUST.
Gayle Boss writes in All Creation Waits: The Advent Mystery of New Beginnings:
“In December, the dark and cold deepen, and our rational minds dismiss it as nothing. We know that on December 21, the winter solstice, the sun will begin its return to our sky. But our animal bodies react with dis-ease. We feel, the light — life — is going.”
Though we may prefer the sunshine and warmth to darkness and cold, writing practice reminds us that our darkness is JUST as natural as our light, the way that nighttime is just as natural as daytime; winter just as natural as summer.
A few weeks ago, I shared a post about a huge fight Kep and I had, where I felt dark and cold. Warmth and understanding did not flow through me. But I trusted what was on the other side of “emptying on the page.”
I shared that I had resistance to writing what I really, REALLY felt in the moment, but once I acknowledged my dark feelings, without judgement, I felt peace.
I felt free.
I felt more whole.
“The dark is not an end, but a door. This is the way a new beginning comes.”
To read “I’m impaired,” click here (most of you didn’t receive this in your inbox due to delivery issues).
Or re-read it through the lens of TRUST and notice your own resistance to, and/or welcoming of TRUST for the dark not as an end, but a door.
(Oh, and by the way, Sunday was the first day since writing “I’m impaired” that I spoke that line, with as much calmness and patience as I could muster. I have to say, it really helped! It bought me time to slow down, calm down, understand what I was really angry about, and speak from my heart. If you try it, let me know how it goes!)
Want to write?
Take a pen & prompt journey:
bare winter tree
2). Keep your pen moving as you write the thoughts, feelings, and images that arise. Don’t stop to think or edit. Don’t try to stay on “topic.” Follow where the prompt takes you.
3). Accept ALL that you write -- the pretty + ugly; absurd + boring. Discover what wants to be felt, known, expressed, released...