What I really want to say is…

What I really want to say is I have so much to say and don't know where to start.

What I really want to say is I don't want to write about using tarot cards as writing prompts anymore. I'm burning with excitement, confusion, and terror on what I DO want to share in this space -- but it will be more directly tied to writing as a practice.

What I really want to say is I want to take a bulldozer to my blog and my website and start fresh -- not because I think they're lame, but because my vision for Write to Glow is shifting, or maybe crystallizing.

What I really want to say is I'm thinking of changing the name Write to Glow. 

What I really want to say is I woke up one day a few weeks ago hating the name writing salon and replaced it immediately with writing circles.

What I really want to say is I cried this morning after reading the blogs of two women writers I deeply admire. I felt like an imposter. A fake. It hurt.

What I really want to say is I teach what I most want to learn. 

What I really want to say is the Vegas Writing Circle this past weekend was exhilarating. "Authenticity is Magnetic" was a Danielle LaPorte card a participant pulled as a writing prompt, and those words describe the depth of authenticity and gorgeous vulnerability in that room, which was truly magnetic and charged. The laughter, realness, aliveness, and truth telling was intoxicating.

What I really want to say is I'm using this writing prompt, which I learned from a writing retreat with Natalie Goldberg, because my mind is jumbled with feelings of elation, self-doubt, hope, excitement, anxiety, vision, and overwhelm, and it's the only way I know how to empty my mind in this moment and communicate something real.

What I really want to say is I feel calmer now than when I began this piece.

What I really want to say is I got home from Vegas late last night, went to sleep at 2 am, woke at 7, skipped my regular morning routine and stayed in bed to listen to Marie Folio interview Cheryl Strayed who said this about writing and creating: "Only when I'm gentle with myself can I really let go and do the work." 

What I really want to say is that even when I fortify myself with wise words of gentleness and self-compassion, my inner critic is still dying to compare me unfavorably to others and shake my resolve about what I want to create and share in this world. 

What I really want to say is this quote from Dani Shapiro, who I just discovered an hour ago, is the reason I wrote this blog today. I am grateful for the inspiration:

"When I bring a new book, story, essay into the world, when I give a speech or lead a retreat, I am reporting from the front of the thing I have seen.  The thing that sets me apart.  Each of us is as individual as a snowflake.  Each of us is set apart.  It is in all of our individuality, in the sum total of our life experiences, the specificity of our paths, that we have most to offer one another."

With Love,

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What I really want to say is...

Grab a pen & notebook. Write the prompt at the top of the page.
Set a timer for 10 minutes. Or 5. Or 2!

Write whatever arises in your thoughts, feelings, and sensations.
Don’t stop to think or edit - keep your pen moving.

Accept ALL that you write - the pretty & ugly; absurd & boring.
Discover what wants to be felt, known, expressed, released...